okay so i had a cookie.
i was weak :[
stupid me!!!
on one hand, this stupid little mistake should have led to a binge, it didnt.
infact i was pretty calm, i even went into mcdonalds with my friends and only had a diet coke.
when i got home, i ate a sandwich and a cup of tea..[then purge it]
i am sooo sorry. i couldnt keep it in, it was white bread, and it had lots of butter.
but atleast it wasnt a binge. :/
okay so the timer starts again. 100hours..here i go.
i managed to do just over 45? i am such a flop.
but i must be doing something right, because i felt a bit woozy today [before the cookie]. its a long time since ive felt hungry..like really hungry.
anyone who wants to join me, you are very wellcome, i need the motivation.
have i told you guys how much i LOVE YOU? because i really do.
this morning i was 130.5lbs. 1.5lbs lighter than yesterday.
i'm getting closer to 124lbs ... [just 7lbs to lose]
I purge too. :( It's a habit I'm trying to beat. I'm fasting right now, and my bf is trying to make me eat. :( I hate lying to him.
ReplyDeleteaw yay! 100 hours will be the most I've ever done if I follow through, I'm fucking determined though. So on the 17th at 10:00 pm I'll eat. yay I'm so exciteeed!
ReplyDeletelots of love (:
Mia is a bitch, I've been having a harder and harder time resisting the urge to purge lately... I know we can do it though, love Ana, she wants you to be beautiful, keep that bitch Mia away, she wants you to screw up your insides and get caught.
ReplyDeletegood work not going overboard after that cookie! i know i would've completely lost it but you're obviously a lot more controlled than me! good luck reaching 100 hours this time round...i know you can do it xx
ReplyDeleteyou are not a flop.don't ever think so.
ReplyDeleteAND you are still losing, that's awesome :) take care and stay skinny, i hope this time you can do a full fast.i know you can ^^
I dont get whats wrong with purging...?
ReplyDeleteNice job on avoiding a binge!
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