hey my lovelies. ever get one of those days, wheere its like you are outside your body, and looking at yourself do everything wrong, but you cant stop?
today lunch, i was gonna get some veggie soup, like i always do. but i saw some sweet chilli chicken rice thingi and my friend convinced me to get it. now i could have used the excuse that i am vegeterian which i have been using for a long time, but i didnt. and as i ate, i kept telling myself to 'stop, STOP SHOVING THIS FOOD DOWN YOUR THROAT!' but i didnt, because it was so good. teach me to do things right.
and i know i cant make an excuse, and i know it's up to me to make it right. teach me?
i want to start the abc. i remember the thrill of losing so much in a short period of time. but isnt that what they warn us against? losing lots of weight in a short period of time...you always put back on double what you lost? is it really worthit? i have lost 12lbs on abc before..but it found me. its hard to lose weight, must have really good GPS because it always finds its way home [my thighs]. okay i know that wasnt funny, but its frustrating. why is it that in 2 whole years, i havent been able to lose 30lbs? patience.
i lack patience. we lack patience.
but can you blame us? who doesnt want beauty in an instance?
someone teach me to be skinny without sticking my finger down my throat.
teach me to be beautiful.
aaaaah I know that feeling
ReplyDeleteI think it is important just to have a rule
so maybe have a rule that you have veg soup 4 out of 5 days and then the other one you can have something else,
as long as you even it out by doing some excercise or skipping some other little snacks then it'll be fine
it is hard because we have to fight programming that is thousands of years old, we have to defy scientific laws
You don't need to be taught to be beautiful. You're one of the most fucking beautiful people I know - inside and out.
ReplyDeleteIt's okay that you didn't have veggie soup, because tomorrow is a new day.
You're beautiful Jenny, please recognise this.
Wow, that's exactly what I want - someone to help me be skinny without purging. It feels so weird but good that someone else is the same!
ReplyDeleteHi, thanks for your comments hun! I see you're in London - me too :)
ReplyDeleteMight I suggest Hungry for Change? They are only a few members away from the biggest fast yet. We could all be in together helping you?
http://hungryforchangefast.blogspot.com/
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I feel like I've disappointed you. Today I am eating a lot, and I will throw up.
ReplyDeleteI'm very sorry.