sorry it seems i'm neglecting this blog
but you have to understand, i started it when i felt lonely, when i was disgusted at myself, when i felt like a piece of shit
i told you guys my deepest thoughts and you made me feel better,all the lovely comments, i felt like i could be normal again...normal meaning, not having any worries about anything
and i was normal for a while, it felt good..
and i didnt care about food, or calorie intakes
but then i started to gain, and store everything inside
all my emotions, i had no way to get them out, except through eating
and then i remembered why i started this blog
to let it all out, and feel better, and face the world knowing i dont have to be by myself
i guess this is like my comfort zone
where i feel safe
like i can be myself, i can tell you guys about anything and not be judged
you guys always say the right things to make me feel better
and i thankyou for always being here for me
not gonna lie and say weight is my main reason for returning because its not
i want to be confident, i want to have some sort of direction, i want to not feel alone, to be happy, to feel belonging
now i know some of you may have been interested in how much i've lost
and sorry to disappoint but i've not only added on a few pounds, but i'm now at my highest EVER weight of 155lbs
i'm not gonna hide it. i will blog it, be embarrassed so i can start doin something about it
xxxx God Bless XXX
Jenny, welcome back!!! I thought you were gone forever, I was worried (in fact in one of my recent blogs I asked mi followers if any of them knew anything). You gotta give me your email or something so we can stay in touch.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about the weight, you can lose it if you put your mind to it. You gotta work on your self esteem though, because that's the main reason your weight bounces around, you seek comfort from food, most of us do, but it's not gonna make you feel better. You have to find some activities or hobbies or something that makes you feel like you've really DONE something. Weight loss is good, but it's a longterm process, you need something RIGHT NOW. So think about what you like and work at it.
Oh my, I think I've babbled too much, lol.
XOXO,
Scarlet<3
I'm SO glad you've returned.
ReplyDeleteAww, that's great that you've come back! and isn't this community just amazing? it's such a lovely break from the tough world and here everyone is so sweet and helpful and encouraging, and you feel like anything is possible (: . I just took a break from blogging too but now I'm back, and don't feel bad I gained too, but hopefully we'll both be able to lose it! glad to have you back
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I've been feeling lonely, too. I started this blog a while ago, and I moved and didnt have internet, and it seems like the community isnt as supportive as it used to be... :(
ReplyDeleteAnd I miss having all that support.